It’s been a while.
We’ve been kinda sporadically doing Crossfit,
what with crazy 12-hour workdays and all.
I’ve been doing my own workouts every day at the office–
tricep dips, knee balances on the yoga ball,
pushups and situps and handstands when no one’s looking…
But I really miss doing Crossfit regularly.
(Rotating stations for first three exercises)
5 pistols (each leg)
10 20# KB Swings
45 Single-Unders (for the life of me, I can’t get the rope to go fast enough for a double-under)
20# KB 100m Relay (FUN! And soooo tiring!)
5 Single leg balance extensions (each leg)
That last one is *awesome* because it challenges
your balance, coordination, and it strengthens your back muscles,
which we all need.
I had a breakthrough in handbalancing on Monday night,
which was good, since the rest of class was PAIN and JOINTS and PAIN:
I finally got a solid one minute belly-to-wall handstand,
AND I was able to kick up into a handstand and forward roll out of it,
on my own!
Thought I’d never get through the mental block I was having for that latter bit–
I’m always afraid that I’ll fall on my face,
break all my teeth,
and end up dead and homeless.
(All disasters end this way for me: Bounced a check? Dead and homeless.
Didn’t get a lunch order right? Dead and homeless.
Forgot to feed the dog? Yup. Death and also homelessness.)
I’m sorry I haven’t been around much, lately.
The new job, which I am grateful to have, mind you,
is eating me alive.
by the time I come home,
I just head straight to bed.
I’ve been forcing myself to work on wedding stuff when I get home,
which means I haven’t been enjoying it very much–
instead of being a welcome, creative escape,
it’s become just another thing that I have to do,
just another task that is keeping me from collapsing into bed.
I miss my friends.
I miss my fiancé.
We cram everything into the weekends now,
which also diminishes how enjoyable those are.
I’m not going to lie–it sucks.
our friends have been amazing with the wedding stuffs–
coming over on a Saturday last month to help cut out dozens of felted leaves,
helping me think through logistics and delegation,
flying to LA before the wedding to help with anything that needs helping,
taking over tasks–we are surrounded by truly incredible friends.
I just wish I had a little more time to be with them.
This gig ends in May.
I think some serious changes will be afoot for me after that.
And that’s a good thing.