Maybe yesterday was a premonition.
I was laid off from my job this morning.
It was (as these things usually are) very sudden–
and in small graces,
my manager and the head of my office had nothing to do with the decision–
it was kind of a fell swoop coming down from the board of the company,
and they axed 19 other people along with me.
I am…everything everyone feels in this situation.
Angry, hurt, upset, depressed, worried, terrified.
Ben’s been amazing, of course.
I don’t know if we’ll have to put off the wedding.
We’re hoping we don’t.
I just can’t believe that I’m having to do this again,
barely a year later.
This is so, so fucking shitty.