A Girl, A Boy, A Dress, A Scarf:


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Our amazing photographer and friend, Josh Premako, put together a little sneak peek of our wedding
I cannot WAIT to see all the photos he caught!

Oh, Holy God:


I have four days before our wedding.



In the meantime,
here’s a picture of a hedgepig,
hedgin’ it up:


"They said there would be cake. It was a lie."

“They said there would be cake. It was a lie.”

I Didn’t Expect:


My wedding to involve quite so much spray paint.


Make Your Own Mercury Glass. Take that, Pinterest.

Make Your Own Mercury Glass. Take that, Pinterest.


Just call me the Matrimonial Tagger.


Spray all the things!

Spray all the things!


Who Has Two Thumbs and…


Got a $310 pair of handmade Italian shoes for $78 last night?




Lambent Knot Heels by Something Bleu, from BHLDN

Lambent Knot Heels by Something Bleu, from BHLDN

Get Rid of Your Becca; Seriously, She is Revolting:


I can’t breathe, and I have an alien gargling in my nose,
but hey, I still managed to reserve a moving truck,
order lights for the reception,
change my haircut appointment,
pack the last of my books,
and reserve a block of hotel rooms for the wedding.

Oh, and I managed to glue approximately 5.1 gazillion rhinestones
onto my Halloween costume.

Sick bitches get shit DONE, y’all.


Or something like that.


Yes. Yes, I do. But with slightly more hair.

Not Sure if “Paranoid” Or Just “Bride”:


On my list of things that I am currently afraid of happening at our wedding:

1) My bridesmaids actually hate their dresses and are just being kind about them
2) We are, in fact, having a hipster wedding (but…but…there’s no Pabst! and we’re not serving kimchi!)
3) In five years, I’m going to hate the dress I wore
4) My dress will turn out badly (through no fault of Amanda’s)
5) My mother will, in fact, be incapable of putting her damn camera down
6) Our guests won’t like the food
7) We won’t get a photographer
8) My leaf garlands will look stupid and tacky and all my snorting at Michael’s Crafts wedding aisle will be for naught
9) I will wish that I had worn sleeves
10) My grandmother will say something snide and insulting about my body
11) Our geeky references will just appear snotty
12) No one will RSVP and we will have 400 guests show up and will have to send a groomsmen to Costco for food
13) I will trip on my way down the stairs, taking Ben with me, bashing in our teeth, and end up both dead and homeless
14) It won’t be beautiful


Anyone have a Quaalude they can give me?

Poor Wee Mousie:


Maybe yesterday was a premonition.

I was laid off from my job this morning.

It was (as these things usually are) very sudden–
and in small graces,
my manager and the head of my office had nothing to do with the decision–
it was kind of a fell swoop coming down from the board of the company,
and they axed 19 other people along with me.


I am…everything everyone feels in this situation.

Angry, hurt, upset, depressed, worried, terrified.

Ben’s been amazing, of course.
I don’t know if we’ll have to put off the wedding.
We’re hoping we don’t.

I just can’t believe that I’m having to do this again,
barely a year later.
This is so, so fucking shitty.

Today I:


Feel completely and totally behind the ball.

Knowing that I’m not
(we have our site, our photographer, our rentals, our officiants, and I’m starting to work on my dress with the Amazing Amanda)
doesn’t really help,
because I feel like I should have EVERYTHING DONE.

I kinda figured this might be my particular problem.

*le sigh*

Back to it, mates!



That is the sound of six months,
flying by at the speed of something very fast indeed.

The Boyo and I decided on our site yesterday!

that is one the hardest parts of planning a wedding–
once you have a site reserved,
you can actually start going ahead with the rest of your plans for
rentals, vendors, food…

but what I’m reallyreally looking forward to
are all the little things,
like Art Noveau centerpieces
filled with jasmine and peonies and roses,
and maybe a couch fort in the library of our location because
HELL YES is why,
and maybe strings of paper snowflakes made of pretty tissue paper
that catch the light and diffuse it.

I’m looking forward to holding his hand and grinning like idiots
because we will be surrounded by the people we love most in the world.

Light and color and friends.



Sneak Peek of the Villa. …I KNOW.
(photo by Stephanie Williams Photography)

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